Choices

sometimes in life we find ourselves in a crossroad.
where we have choices to make,

right now i am in one.

I´ve been delaying my life for about 5 years now and i started destroying for about 6, i have now the choice to put my life back in track or to inevitably end it.

This last few weeks I´ve been very sad, i eat only once a day I stay awake all through the night and i almost never leave my room til it´s dark outside, the only real person i have contact with is my girlfriend, and i thank her for that.

So i want to get into these university and the first month i was very motivated I will study every day and shit, but after the first exam i stopped studying like I´ve been studying, i started getting very ansious when i heard or thought about just about anything to do with genomic sciences and the admission process.

I feel like shit, but only worst.